A time to pack…

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“They accepted the offer.” The words felt like a glass of cold water thrown in my face. Not because they where cruel, but because they where unexpected and shocking. Our house has been on the market for just a little over a year now, and in one day, BOOM, we have a buyer. My mind can’t catch up with reality that fast. For the last months I have steeled my hopes in the reality that we may never move. Now it is suddenly upon us.

Where do I start? So much to pack. So many unknowns. So many things could possibly go wrong. So many changes. How will this all play out. Timing. Circumstances. Details. So. Many. Things. To. Do.

“When the kings order and edict had been proclaimed, many young women were brought to the citadel of Susa and put under the care of Hegai. Esther also was taken to the kings palace and entrusted to Hegai, who had charge of the harem.” Esther 2:8

Esther’s opportunity and justification for fear was off the charts. So much to pack. So many unknowns. So many things could possibly go wrong. So many changes. How will this all play out. Timing. Circumstances. Details…

Yet we see that fear did not take over. As she walked out her purpose, her “for such as a time as this”, she “won the favor of all who saw her.” She faced her fears, rested in her purpose and in the God she had been chosen by.  In this humility we see God was able to direct, He was able to lead in not only the absolutely difficult but in the profound and awe inspiring.

May we face the difficult tasks before us not with crippling fear but with peace, security and trust in the one who has chosen the path before us. He is faithful in all He calls us to do and be.

Early Rest

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The sun begins to peek its happy warm glow through my thin paned windows, the sound of coffee drips and fills the morning air with awakening aroma, I can hear the kids slowly drag their heavy feet down the creaky wooden staircase.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

These are the words that my Father breathes into me this morning. Filling my soul with fresh air. He rushes in, where weariness quickly meets disappointment and pain. Lifting the burden just as it attempts to lean heavily upon my shoulders.

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May we seek out the rest He longs to give our weary hearts, early in the morning.





It awakens new in the morning

It sings with Joys, melody

It envelopes the painful edges of weakness

It pushes forward towards victory

It delights with in the broken

It satisfies deeply the humble

It strengthens the impossible

It draws truth from the darkness

It presents a glorious solution

It awakens again, new in the morning

The rubble Life.

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Over seven years ago now I sat next to Jon at a table in a small lawyers office signing my name here… here… here… here… on a stack of documents that made us first time home buyers. Tickled pink about the prospects of transforming the rooms of our new home into what I could see in my minds eye, I was giddy and excited. The only pink on Jon’s mind was the pink carpet that had to be ripped up before anything was moved from the U-Haul to the inside of our new home.

Boxes stored in separate rooms of the house we began our renovations. Knocking down walls, removing the goose wallpaper and pink carpet, we spent several months, painting, fixing, replacing, rebuilding, swallowing lots of ibuprofen to ease the ache of our muscles, and daily collapsed onto the mattress which was still on the floor every evening when we could do no more.

“What are these feeble Jews doing? Will they restore their walls? Will they offer sacrifice’s? Will they finish in a day? Can they bring the stones back to life from those heaps of rubble – burned as they are?” Nehemiah 4:2

As we walk out renovations, repairs and or the new additions of our lives, all of it will never go unnoticed by the enemy. He is quick to come in with his hands filled with pointed discouragement. Targeting our vulnerability  weariness has created.

With a paintbrush or sledge hammer in one hand and the sword of Truth in the other we press in.

In Him we are strong! We will give Him glory in our sacrifice! We will trust Him! He IS the giver of LIFE… these burned and broken places WILL be brought to LIFE by His power and for His glory!

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“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I will praise Him.” Psalms 28:7

“The Lord brings death and makes alive; He brings down to the grave and raises up. The Lord sends poverty and wealth; He humbles and He exalts. He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; He seats them with princes and has them inherit a throne of honor. For the foundations of the earth are the Lords; on them He has set the world. He will guard the feet of His faithful servants, but the wicked will be silenced in the place of darkness.” 1 Samuel 2:6-9

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As we walk out in newness, may we be encouraged by the truth of who we are in Him. His love will keep us. In Him there is no fear!


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“This is what God the Lord says – the Creator of the heavens, who stretches them out, who spreads out the earth with all that springs from it, who gives breath to its people and life to those who walk on it:

I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand.”

Isaiah 42:5,6 NIV

Accumulo gentleness

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Cozy, I sit cross legged with my laptop perched on top of a pillow in front of me. The skies are darkened with clouds, but releasing enough light to keep me in that perpetual state of craving a nap instead of making any attempts of accomplishment!

It is in the stillness of the clouded, soft light, my heart is quickened by the Gentleness of my Father.

When things around me grow harsh, when moments seem too sharp for my heart, when the questions of my mind become too demanding. He comes like the clouds. He hovers close and slows the beat of my heart. His Gentleness surrounds me and produces the stillness my heart needs.

“Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.” Philippians 4:5

As we take time to bask in His surrounding, indwelling, stilling, Gentleness, it will quickly become who we are, and without effort it is made evident to all. To acquire it involves basking in it! The simplicity of achieving Gentleness is gentle in and of itself!

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May His gentleness be evident in the way we lead ourselves and how we live each of our moments.

A Pinefull Reminder

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Sitting below the towering pines, the setting sun slowly immerses the long slender needles in gold. Exchanging the foreshadowed Christmas colors of green for a moment of heavens foretold golden Glory.

A baby who came in fragile simplicity, with the fullness of the story already written in the heart and mind of the Father.

Walking a path of pain, suffering and rejection for the hope set before Him. A true hope, seen clearly in the mind and heart of the Father.

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2:10 niv


As I sit and watch the glorious gold fade from the tips of the pines, now exchanged with deep, long shadows, I cling to this reminder.

Todays colors may not be the colors I would have chosen or anticipated, but I am His handiwork, He has chosen the colors. I have been created in the mind and heart of my Father. I will trust.

My heart yearns for only the colors seen in that quick glimps of sunset glory, yet I was created for purpose here and now. A purpose my Father had on His mind and heart long before my arrival. I will seek.

The shadows quickly revealing the darkness that surrounds, yet through the purpose of Good works He has set before me, His Light will not be overcome. I am His, fully loved in the mind and heart of my Father. I will follow.

“After He has suffered he will see the light of life and be satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and he will bear their iniquities.” Isaiah 53:11 niv

Through the “light of life” Jesus received, we now share in the Joy of His handiwork, the Goodness of His purpose, and the Victory of His story.

May we find delight to be formed and found in the heart and mind of our Father. And may we walk fully in our purpose, towards the Light of Life that will one day fully satisfy!